Fireworks in My Heart

Eventhough only with a little effort, but your good intention covers everything. It is perfectly fills the hole inside of you.

Because giving is about a good heart. You're trying to make someone else happy. It doesn't matter what's your gift, big or small. Worth as a gold or just tiny little candy, your heart are bigger than anything in this world.

And just heard the receiver feel absolutely glad with it, it pays everything you're work on.



It was a relieve. Like have fireworks inside.

Keep Your Enemy Closer

You won't realized anything before it comes to you. When you think it's easy, you're wrong.

When it first come to you, you feel this is natural. This is how nature works in your life without any notice. We just want a happiness with a good thing that happen on that time. Yes you think about it deeply enough. Reduce any mistakes that will come. But once again, this is the NATURE.

You can't throw the obstacles away. It comes with whole package of the way that you choose to gain a happiness. You need to deal with it. Yes, it's hurt. Drizzle all over your body and yes, soul. But do you have another choice? You already know, one day this thing will come. And you keep on doing it. Don't think about it that much. Just sit down and enjoy the show. Because that's the only thing you can do.

You have your own belief, your own faith. You are strong and you know you will. And you understand your capability to deal with those things. Just keep it closer to you. Let them introduce theirselves and then become a friend of yours. Put it 5 centimetres next to you and it's done. Your job now is watch it clearly.



Because there's no such things as BETRAYAL in this world. Those perform betrayal are just silly one, envy your fascinating experience of life. And whose giving it to you, won't take it way. You have the power of your life. Just take one from them, it'll be fine.

Enemies ARE Friend.

I Wish I Can Control My Time

Time is running.

They will leave you if you can't catch them up. You have to be rushing now. In a short time you need to fulfill all your needs but they won't wait only for you.

I wish I can control my time.

Don't Want To Lose

Today, I left my lady bug's flash disk on computer at library. Just found out 2 hours later in my class.



And I realize.

When you forgot something, the best to found out is when know there's no possibilities to get it back. It makes you more relieved and let that things go away from your mind. First 5 minutes, you will blame yourself why you'd be that careless or stupid. But after that, you will accept the way it should be. It was past. You can't turn the time back. It become a reminder so that things won't happen again.

Because this is what will happen when you found out you're losing something in short time:
You will keep on thinking of that thing and it makes you lost of your concentration. If you in the middle of class (like me), your heart will beating fast. You want to run to find your lost thing but you know you can't. You begin to feel anxious and (sometimes) your feet are shaking out of control. It's not good.
When you don't have any obstacle to get that as soon as possible, you will run to the last place you remember where it was and looking for it. You're crossing your finger hope it still there. When it's not, it'll become your worst nightmare.

In my theory :
Maybe if you remember it the day after, you still search for that thing but not with a big amount of hope that you'll find it again. It's 50-50 change and it's fair.

In my case, after finishing my class I ran to the library. First thing to do i run to the computer that I used and check. There wasn't there. Then I asked the librarian, he checked the lost and found box, eureka it's there. Relieved. (Because I just saved a draft of my assignment inside)

Try to let something go is better than to think about it over and over again. It won't give you a headache, you can still continue your life and take that as a lesson.

Because life is about learning.

One

I just want to write again.

To fill up the empty space, to waste this internet byte, to share my life here. I think a part of me is lost in order to follow that man steps. This part of me. When I just sit here and type everything I want. Playing with all the words that I know to create a good impression of myself, to build by self actualization in this world.

You will never know how it felt. This is me that I left behind. This is me that I thought belongs to someone. But I’m not. I am who I am I want to be. I am moving forward but never left what is best in me. To keep telling a story.



This is me trying to find the lost part of myself. I not blaming anybody for this, I only realize that this is good thing for me. My life is changing, in good way. My life is move forward as it supposed to be. My life is new because the new chapter I made. But I don’t want to miss something behind because I enjoy making a new one. Eventhough I keep on struck finding the right way. The right way to tell this to you.

I just want to write again. To get comment of what I’m trying to say. To get criticized from my crazy thought about life. I just want to feel that excitement again. Even just for a second.

Because this is who I am. A hideous story teller.