Am I Too Picky?

Life is a cycle. You'll feel both excitement and sorrow. You can't choose one but you can try to have a better one.

You can't choose which life you want to be in, which family you were born in, which destiny you wish to have. It is God authority. As human, the only thing we can do is make an effort to achieve what we want to.

Now I'm bored with this situation. The static and unchangeable (worst : unmanageable) situation that trapped me inside. I know this isn't the only choice I can choose from, but this is most convenience one that I can get. I should've try different one. Trying to find a better way out to living life, do more research. (Yeap I just found out that everything we do is based on research. It's not only when you want to make an advertising campaign). Starting with background, do in-depth interview, find the variable and create the hypothesis. Eliminates the harmful things and extract the good one. Or do some mix and match, makes a collage, trying to find best solution for every problem.

I'm not saying I didn't to that and now I choose the wrong one. But the research that I did is not accurate. I miss a variable : the CAUSAL factor. From everything that we decide to do always have consequences that we need to consider about. And now I drown in misinterpretation. They are good but not as good as the other. They are fine but not led me to right path. They are helpful but in the same time undermining.

I should've run but I can't. I should've reorganize everything but I didn't.

I'm just bored of it.

Me and My Private Time

That quote is always right :

You won't miss and considered them before they're gone.

There is a time when you feel everything is too much. You're not on capability to handle all the things going on your life, balance it with your duty as human being or whatever role you do now. You just want to feel free and do whatever you want without having a thought that it will hurt someone or not. You just want to enjoy your life without tied to a group. You just feel tired.

Deep down inside you'll know that they're your life savior. They will be there if you need someone to lean on. They will be there when you need an urgent help. And if they're your life will be nothing. You already understand all the risk of going outside the circle.

You just need a short break. A couple days of retreat from your static life. I'm pretty sure they'll understand.

Everything New

From the new room I just moved in 5 days ago to new semester started in Uni. With new housemate which are all girls ( finally. I'm so excited) and new neighbors that I can count it. Learning advertising in English which is makes me dying.

Yesterday my day started with go to uni and found out I can enter the building because the fire alarm rang inside and lock the whole building. We standing outside for 15 minutes waiting for our FIRST CLASS in new semester (and it was 8 in the morning! Crap!). Sitting in the lecture room listening to Blair (which I thought is a lovely woman, turn out to be a bald old man with tattoos and crazy advertising mind), half fainted. Couldn't imagine how can I survive in this semester. Then the thunder roaring. My first assignment. DHUARRR!

Need someone to help me solve this problem! T.T But I can survive!