Am I Too Picky?

Life is a cycle. You'll feel both excitement and sorrow. You can't choose one but you can try to have a better one.

You can't choose which life you want to be in, which family you were born in, which destiny you wish to have. It is God authority. As human, the only thing we can do is make an effort to achieve what we want to.

Now I'm bored with this situation. The static and unchangeable (worst : unmanageable) situation that trapped me inside. I know this isn't the only choice I can choose from, but this is most convenience one that I can get. I should've try different one. Trying to find a better way out to living life, do more research. (Yeap I just found out that everything we do is based on research. It's not only when you want to make an advertising campaign). Starting with background, do in-depth interview, find the variable and create the hypothesis. Eliminates the harmful things and extract the good one. Or do some mix and match, makes a collage, trying to find best solution for every problem.

I'm not saying I didn't to that and now I choose the wrong one. But the research that I did is not accurate. I miss a variable : the CAUSAL factor. From everything that we decide to do always have consequences that we need to consider about. And now I drown in misinterpretation. They are good but not as good as the other. They are fine but not led me to right path. They are helpful but in the same time undermining.

I should've run but I can't. I should've reorganize everything but I didn't.

I'm just bored of it.