Envy

I envy you.

Why you can keep that friendship on the same path like it supposed to be? Did I do something wrong?

I just want to be a good friend. Share our story like before. When you still look at me as a good accompany that always be there for you. When you still believe that I am a good friend who won't broke you apart. Live in such a mysterious world because I have to interpret your world by myself, and I think I passed that stage. I just miss that moment.

Should I lost a friend because we're now stand in a different context of life? I am still who I am. Although many things change, but I'm the same old person who keep my promises. I know we lived in a completely different world. We just try to keep on going side by side when we met at some point. I still enjoy that kind of life.

Maybe what we do now is proving whose dignity is the top of others. We just waiting until one of us open our mouth to each other. Or remain quite means one of us do something wrong to each other. You just don't want to be hurt anymore.



I hate this situation. I just want to be friend. Is it too hard? Can you tell me what goes wrong? I just didn't want what I've learn about you this past years become nothing. Such a waste of time.